Who am I-a comprehensive and boring guide to the enigma titled Aafi
Well...I've been called scary, intimidating, over-sarcastic, irritating, affable, cynical, mean, funny, geek, nerd, ugly, pseud, bald, hairy, goofy, retarded, adorable, tall, fat, obese, over-weight, callous, lazy, motivated, enthu-less, given up, lit god,bulbo,intelligent,brilliant,genius,prodigy,VIP(that a prof called me-takes the cake)...and a whole bunch of other words....but they dont even go half way into exploring my true self...
Born and brought up in Chandigarh, christened Aaftaab, with an abundance of A's that ensures me Roll No. 1 wherever I go, and raised in probably the best and almost ideal environments possible, I have led what most people might refer to as a near-ideal life, have the best possible parents and sis...no regrets, no complaints..
Appearances can be deceptive....so please go by mine...
I am decently tall, always a couple of pounds on the wrong side of the scale, heavily built, currently have long hair, thick specs, tons of hair all over the body, and yeah...an ever expanding forehead.
What I do, and more importantly, what i dont
Well, I love music, sometimes it is all I need to live on...
I dont mind reading [it has taken a back seat in the last few years though :( ]
I love watching football and cricket...Go ManU and India respectively !
I love watching movies...vague to dumb, brilliant to cheesy..comedies to epics..anything
I LOVE FOOD..it is the ultimate pleasure...and for me...the ultimate sin too..
I get sudden bursts of sometimes meaningful, sometimes vague, sometimes rhyming, sometimes not...mostly amateurish poetry..
I hate politics, and arguements....
I dislike boring courses...and in IITM Civil they are in abundance...
I dislike people who form opinions based on appearances(ahem...Dear prof. Apparao..pray heed)
I dislike mugging something that i see no point in mugging..
I try and live by my own rules..at least since the past few years..but after your entire childhood is spent in a more or less 'regular' fashion(taking part in extra-cul, topping class, becoming headboy...all the usual stuff), the coming of age and then realising how you want to live your life, and more importantly, actually living it, doesnt come easy. For me, it involves some crucial decision making, some rule-breaking, and some resistance-less going-with-the-flow....
As of now, I have a pretty good picture of what I like and dont, what I beleive and dont....this doesnt mean that 10 years down the line I'll still be following the same rules...I might be looking back and laughing at my immaturity, or I may be looking back at despair at unrealised potential...who knows?
I trust myself, I back myself to do stuff sometimes to a superhumann level, and I get disappointed quickly and regularly...but still, I have this undying faith in myself, in what I am capable of doing if I want to...thats it ....IF I WANT TO...sadly, presently I dont find myself really wanting to do much......I have stopped studying, have lost all interest in Engg...only feel enthused if there is a problem that is mentally challenging in a non-academic way, and dont really know what I will do after 2.5 years....but one thing is for sure..I have a never-dying faith that sooner or later, I shall find that one thing I will want to spend my life working on..and I shall do it.
I wanted to be an artist, and actor, a chef, a psychologist....wanted to go to National School of Drama, wanted to join the Food Crafts Institute.....but I made 2 fatal errors..1) I scored high marks in exams, which for young Indian males, implies that you HAVE to go to IIT or AIIMS, or at least work your butt off for it...and 2) For the most forgetful moments of my life, I wasnt sure about myself, I didnt bank on myself, and didnt back myself when I needed me the most..I just nodded in humble resignation, and went for my coaching classes....there died the actor, the chef, the psychologist..to be revived some day? I dont know...I hope so
About my nature...well, I am kinda moody..get extremely sarcy when I am having one of those days..possessive (not obsessive though), contemplate a lot..do little; think too much about some stuff, think too little about most things; like having friends, but am equally comfortable in solitude; like laughing..giggle a bit too much; sometimes insensitive, sometimes oversensitive, dont like poking my nose into others' business, and expect them to extend the same courtesy to me; love simplicity, and hate overcrowded parties and places..prefer a quiet talk or walk anyday; love the beach..it makes me senti almost always; like forming philosophical theories, and then laughing at myself as I strive unsuccessfully to realise them; like discussing stuff-but hate arguing, and yeah..love sitting and theinking about anything and everything..the kind where you suddenly realise that the last one hour of your life you have been sitting in the same pose, and still have no idea what you were thinking about...:D
well..I think thats all about me...and somehow...most of me is still left untold..and I guess never will.
'Tis safer to be that which we destroy
Than by destruction dwell in doubtful joy .....ol' Bill himself
Born and brought up in Chandigarh, christened Aaftaab, with an abundance of A's that ensures me Roll No. 1 wherever I go, and raised in probably the best and almost ideal environments possible, I have led what most people might refer to as a near-ideal life, have the best possible parents and sis...no regrets, no complaints..
Appearances can be deceptive....so please go by mine...
I am decently tall, always a couple of pounds on the wrong side of the scale, heavily built, currently have long hair, thick specs, tons of hair all over the body, and yeah...an ever expanding forehead.
What I do, and more importantly, what i dont
Well, I love music, sometimes it is all I need to live on...
I dont mind reading [it has taken a back seat in the last few years though :( ]
I love watching football and cricket...Go ManU and India respectively !
I love watching movies...vague to dumb, brilliant to cheesy..comedies to epics..anything
I LOVE FOOD..it is the ultimate pleasure...and for me...the ultimate sin too..
I get sudden bursts of sometimes meaningful, sometimes vague, sometimes rhyming, sometimes not...mostly amateurish poetry..
I hate politics, and arguements....
I dislike boring courses...and in IITM Civil they are in abundance...
I dislike people who form opinions based on appearances(ahem...Dear prof. Apparao..pray heed)
I dislike mugging something that i see no point in mugging..
I try and live by my own rules..at least since the past few years..but after your entire childhood is spent in a more or less 'regular' fashion(taking part in extra-cul, topping class, becoming headboy...all the usual stuff), the coming of age and then realising how you want to live your life, and more importantly, actually living it, doesnt come easy. For me, it involves some crucial decision making, some rule-breaking, and some resistance-less going-with-the-flow....
As of now, I have a pretty good picture of what I like and dont, what I beleive and dont....this doesnt mean that 10 years down the line I'll still be following the same rules...I might be looking back and laughing at my immaturity, or I may be looking back at despair at unrealised potential...who knows?
I trust myself, I back myself to do stuff sometimes to a superhumann level, and I get disappointed quickly and regularly...but still, I have this undying faith in myself, in what I am capable of doing if I want to...thats it ....IF I WANT TO...sadly, presently I dont find myself really wanting to do much......I have stopped studying, have lost all interest in Engg...only feel enthused if there is a problem that is mentally challenging in a non-academic way, and dont really know what I will do after 2.5 years....but one thing is for sure..I have a never-dying faith that sooner or later, I shall find that one thing I will want to spend my life working on..and I shall do it.
I wanted to be an artist, and actor, a chef, a psychologist....wanted to go to National School of Drama, wanted to join the Food Crafts Institute.....but I made 2 fatal errors..1) I scored high marks in exams, which for young Indian males, implies that you HAVE to go to IIT or AIIMS, or at least work your butt off for it...and 2) For the most forgetful moments of my life, I wasnt sure about myself, I didnt bank on myself, and didnt back myself when I needed me the most..I just nodded in humble resignation, and went for my coaching classes....there died the actor, the chef, the psychologist..to be revived some day? I dont know...I hope so
About my nature...well, I am kinda moody..get extremely sarcy when I am having one of those days..possessive (not obsessive though), contemplate a lot..do little; think too much about some stuff, think too little about most things; like having friends, but am equally comfortable in solitude; like laughing..giggle a bit too much; sometimes insensitive, sometimes oversensitive, dont like poking my nose into others' business, and expect them to extend the same courtesy to me; love simplicity, and hate overcrowded parties and places..prefer a quiet talk or walk anyday; love the beach..it makes me senti almost always; like forming philosophical theories, and then laughing at myself as I strive unsuccessfully to realise them; like discussing stuff-but hate arguing, and yeah..love sitting and theinking about anything and everything..the kind where you suddenly realise that the last one hour of your life you have been sitting in the same pose, and still have no idea what you were thinking about...:D
well..I think thats all about me...and somehow...most of me is still left untold..and I guess never will.
'Tis safer to be that which we destroy
Than by destruction dwell in doubtful joy .....ol' Bill himself
posted by Aafi at 10:51 AM
1 Comments:
luv yer style of writin.. good goin.. me can pick sum pointers.. =)
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